I signed the contract.
My book, “Sara When She Chooses,” will be published.
The process begins and I’m a sponge eager to absorb every step, because this! this! is what I’ve been hoping, dreaming, working toward.
It’s a strange sensation; a combination panic and anticipation. I really want to work. My literary energy is foaming and fomenting. At the same time, I want the luxury of staring at each step and memorizing it, wallowing in it. I’ve had years of rejections and have learned to appreciate them as sometimes inspirational, sometimes instructional, but mostly as proof to myself that I don’t give up. I’m proud of my incessant head-banging on publishers’ doors.
One of the most important lessons I learned was that sometimes the work is rejected because it’s not done. Revisit. Revise. Don’t be afraid to cut and abandon. You created this thing. It lives inside you. Nothing you do to it on paper will destroy the source from which it came.
You’ve got more in you.
In my own journey, I’ve been asked to submit a brief bio and photo…(visions arise of the nod to the writer contained on the back flap of most dust covers, or the last page of most paperbacks).
I’ve been asked to think about what I’d like to see in the way of cover art. This engendered an internet foray, shamelessly pirating images to try and convey my ideas to the publisher’s illustrator.
I realize I’m about words, but not pictures.
Then came the marketing questionnaire. A weighty list of queries delving into hitherto unexplored areas. What bookstores and radio and TV stations are in my locale? What questions would a reading group enjoy exploring in relation to my book? How would I describe my work to someone interested in buying it?
I realize I’m about words, but not salesmanship.
I begin to realize how much I need the expertise embodied in the publishers, Bedazzled Ink and its subsidiaries.
For a moment, my brain…shifts. This is real.
My life is in the hands of my publishers and then, if all goes well, in the minds of my readers.
It’s a feeling unlike any other. I won’t be the same person at the end of this process. I’m kind of scared.
I wouldn’t have it any other way.